movie night

Ok so me and my roommate opted to staying in tonight and watching a movie.. We watched  Elizabethtown, a pretty good movie. but it made me realize something, i have stayed away from my family for far too long.  how long has it been since i went to visit my grandfather's grave?? i know it has been months maybe even before i moved to davis.  i remember that i used to talk to his gravestone and pretend that it was him. even though i know that he is here with me, i just feel distant.  i need him so much... or maybe should i change that to needed him. cuz i  used to go to him everytime i need to make a hard decision or i had a problem. but now? i content myself with talking to the midnight air.  that silence, it makes me feel half empty. that emptiness that i relate to the beginning.  i guess cuz i have nothing that is concrete for me to connect it with him.. i dunno but i do know that as soon as i go home, i'm gonna pay that pile of bones a visit. 

ugh, i have four papers that are all due next week or so.. i hate it!! so this weekend is gonna be dedicated to writing the papers and finishing them, cuz i need to finish out strong! oh yea.. i feel like such a bore. but whatever. my education comes first right... anyways
i found out that an old friend used to like me.  haha i never would of thought that. we only knew each other for like 3 or 4 months and he liked me.. its crazy!